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[10-13-08 at 9pm] |
goddamn this stupid fucking disease.
goddamn your lack of faith that i can fight it.
i fucking miss you so much.
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[6-2-08 at 4pm] |
i miss home.
write to me?
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[5-12-08 at 5pm] |
there is so much going on right now.
but i cant say any of it out loud or i'll realize its all happening.
i really need a vacation from myself.
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[2-25-08 at 3pm] |
Hey brosephssssss.
How are ya'll ?! Cool why'd I ask that you're obviously not going to answer. Way to be, Lindsey. ANYWAY. Life has been gooddd. Lets start with Thursday of last week. Last Thursday, I came home and ran, and took a shower. Thennn I went to the boys basketball game to watch baby boy play his last game of the seasonnn. He made both of his foul shots & I was proud of him. Erin came with meee & we stayed for half the varsity game, then we took her home. It was a lot of fun.
Then I awoke at 8 am on Friday to a powdered-white lawn & icy roads. I got out of bed, made breakfast, & then made plans with people. Then Daddy & I went on a walk all the way down to Trotter's field & then we walked through the trails in the woods, came home, & shoveled the driveway. Then we made a "Snow Dude" which was a lot of fun. Soon afterrrrr I went to Ben's & we walked to Laurel Acres, sledded/tubed for a little while. That was a lot of fun. I forgot how much I enjoy being propelled beyond my control into 7 year old girls. When we were done we went back to Ben & his mama made us some bangin hot chocolate. I love his parents. We chatted with then for a while, I got to borrow sweat pants, and we watched something or something. Then daddy got me, I showered, & went to Bianca's with Becca & Courtney. That was such a good time I hadn't laughed that hard in forever. We acted like preschoolers & prank phone-called several people hahaha & roamed the streets. I'm so excited for England with Biancaaa !!
Saturday, I woke up, & daddy made breakfast. Thennn I did laundry, cleaned the house for mama, & went on a run/showered. After thattttt I basically blowdried my hair, straightened it, got dressed & ready, and then baby boy came over & we watched golf hahahaha and ate dinner. At some point mama thought it was appropriate to grill him on his religious habits, & daddy talked about naked women skiing in Europe.
Interesting.
After dinner we got changeddd & I touched up my hair. We took ridiculous pictures & Ben's mama picked us up. We got to Maddi & Gayle's party & eventually Benjamin got me to dance. Have a mentioned I don't like dancing? Yeah, it was an interesting experiencing. But before the night's end, I decided I like dancing to black people music. Have I mentioned, though, that I love everything about that boy? If I haven't before, I will now. I love everything about that boy. So anyway, the night was so much fun, Maddi & Gayle outdid themselves it was so much fun.
We took Ben home, & I passed out the second we got home.
Sunday I woke up & had breakfast, & seriously did nothing till about 2:30 when Madison came over & we had a rave hahahaha. We were so pumped from the previous night's dancing that we downloaded all this rap & just danced for like two hours. Then we watched Billy Madison, she left, & I finished up my homeworkkkkk. Uneventful day, really.
But now it's Monday & I'm beat & swamped. & I have to go on a run =( goddamn
oh well. i love you all.
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[2-18-08 at 7pm] |
AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!!!
I am so unbelievably pissed off right now.
so i was so pumped to see cobra starship
march 6th. we got the tickets in like november.
i was SO EXCITED.
so then, traub has auditions for teen arts a few
weeks ago. i didnt audition, cause i didnt know
the material at all, i was the only ge member who
didnt audition. he yelled at me for not trying out
saying it would be a good experience. i shrugged it off.
he announced the teen arts people a few days ago.
i was one of them. i didnt even audition. so i was stoked
& kinda proud of myself.
then i found out it was a day after the cobra concert.
so basically i told my mom. and she went crazy on me.
saying she spends 80 dollars a month on my singing
lessons & i'm blowing it off for some concert.
(every time i go to a concert, i lose my voice)
but GUESS WHAT BITCHES. I DIDNT EVEN AUDITION
FOR TEEN ARTS. WHAT THE FUCK. SUDDENLY IM
THE ONE BLOWING OFF SINGING BUT I DIDNT EVEN
WANT TO DO THIS. I DIDNT EVEN LIKE SIGN UP FOR IT.
so now mum goes "if you're hoarse for the teenarts,
you're not taking singing lessons anymore"
ive taken lessons since i was in 4th grade. it's one of my
favourite hobbies. and now i have to cancel a concert
ive been looking forward to since NOVEMBER for
something i DIDNT EVEN WANT TO DO IN THE
FIRST PLACE.
theyre fucking yelling at me cause the concerts a school
night in philly etc etc
theyre saying maddi can go instead she likes cobra
I DONT WANT TO MISS THIS CONCERTTTT.
so then today i check my email and mcr posted one date
for the east coast for the rest of the tour. ONE DATE.
its in philly. on may 6th. i wanna go so bad.
so my mums trying to get me skip the cobra concert so i said
mum. mcr, the band ive loved for 4 lovelie years, is coming to
philly may 6th. ill skip the cobra concert & give the tickets
to madison if i can go. i tried to go last year, had 4th row tickets,
& it got canceled. THIS IS MY ONE CHANCE TO SEE THEM CLOSE.
THEYVE BEEN ON TOUR FOREVER WHO KNOWS IF THEYLL
GO ON AGAIN?
so she said no. cause its a school night. i begged and begged.
she knows ive loved them forever.
she said no. but then she used what i said about maddi being
able to take my cobra tickets against me.
so now she says i cant go to mcr OR to cobra.
this day fucking sucks.
but im so glad i have bennn.
hahahah
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[2-18-08 at 12pm] |
one month of happiness.
=)
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[2-9-08 at 10pm] |
Holy shniekies.
February already?
This yearrrrrr is going by fast.
'08 so far has been well.
I'm at Gayle's as of present.
We're watching Across the Universe,
for me it's the 3rd time in 24 hours.
Yesterday I made Ben watch it,
he didn't like it. I should end the
relationship for that sole reason.
Juuuuust kidding.
Anyway. Let's see. Yesterday, I went
to school & stayed after with daddy.
Then we came home & chilled.
Then we went to CVS & Borders,
to get Across the Universe/prepare
Benjamin's Valentine's Day present.
I'd explain it, but apparently he's found
ways to read my LJ, so it remains secret
until Thursday.
After we got the stuff, I came home &
ran/watched the Patriot [AMAZING movie].
I then made pizza, took a shower, ate pizza,
& proceeded to watch Across the Universe
to an unimpressed boyfriend.
Todayyyy I woke up, lay in bed for an hour and
a half, got up, at breakfast, dawdled, vacuumed
the house, did geometry homework, went
for a run, showered, ate lunch, read Ino the Wild
(GAY), then went and played basketball con the
neighbours for like an hour. It was actually fun.
I came inside after we all just hung outtt, and
got online, got bored, and played some more
basketball with them till Gayle picked me up.
Then me and her fam went to PF Changs, which
was packed, so we relocated to Champs.
I love her fam.
Now I'm with her, having a dance party.
Wow if you read that entry you have no life
cause that was really boring.
OH WELL.
I LOVE YOU ALL.
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[1-24-08 at 12pm] |
I'm gonna try to be better about updating this thing.
So it's 12:42, after day 3 of midterms.
My house is fucking FREEZING WTF.
I have TWO HOODIES ON. Whatever.
I'm really bored guys. hahahah
I was gonna go to madison's with gayle
& nate, but i didn't really feel like being
social. Plus, I'm going to Steph's around
five to study for english, and idk if my parents
feel like driving me all over today.
Espanol was mad easy today, but I accidentally
did the preterate conjugation page wrong,
so thats not good. oopsies !
history I think I fucked up on, cause I knew honestly
like every answer, so I went to make some of
them wrong, like one or two, but then I realized
I think I did a few t/f ones wrong, so I may have
accidentally failed myself.
Oopsies.
At least these things are almost over.
How do people develop a love for physical activity?
I wish I could. That'd be sweet.
So guys. March 6 = COBRA STARSHIP !!!
Holy shit dudes I get to see VICKYT UP CLOSE ! <3
& England on March 19th ! I'm way excited.
Gayle & Madison's sweet sixteens in Februaryyy.
Yo bitches, what do ya'll want for your birthdays?
Idk what to get you.
Okay I'm gonna go dance around in my underwear.
Cause that's what I do when I'm bored.
I love you all.
ps. hi ben.
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[1-18-08 at 11pm] |
Hey eljay.
I've been really bad about keeping up with my livejournal.
Sorry dudes.
Let's seeeee.
Finals come up this week. OuchersX10.
It's okay though, I suppose I'll get through it; I have to.
Hows it already freaking January ?!
It's Ryan's birthday tooooo !
Wow I planned on making a giant update but like.
There's nothing to update on. hahahah
School goes on. & on. & on.
Gayle Madison & Steve are still my 3 favourite people.
I haven't had much time for things lately though.
I want to get a new book to read and enjoy but
If I start reading it, I think "I should be using this free
time to work on school stuff."
Its amazing how much we sacrifice in life, you know?
Like, words cannot even describe to you how freaking much
I hate running. It makes me want to kill myself.
Like they say after you do it for a while you just learn to love it.
No. But, alas, every other day, I force myself to run at least 2 miles.
Cause its good for me.
I hate scrambled eggs, too. They make me so freaking queasy its gross.
But I eat them every morning cause I need protein.
Blah I feel like my life is so routine to what's good for me, & its all stuff I hate.
At least I have a good family, a good house, a good home, & the best friends
I could possibly ask for =]
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[1-12-08 at 11pm] |
hello alllll.
sorry i've been so out of touch with the eljay world.
life's been busy !!
school is really difficult this semester -- i'm honestly just scraping by.
Even though I'm trying my absolute hardest >_<
Whatever I guess.
This year, aside from grades, has been amazing.
[I don't just mean the new year fyi, thats obv. tough to judge...I mean soph year]
I saw Hairspray wednesday with the choir, Ashely Parker Angel was our Link !
omgggg Otown was my freaking childhood ! hahaha
It was amazing.
Also, I've got myself a boy. Prime age. Good manners. Not too expensive.
...I don't even know what I'm talking about.
But basically, he's amazing =]
& he's making me happyhappyhappy.
Ummm what else. I <3 my friendies. They are amazing.
Idk what else to talk about. I'm taking Alg2 in the summer apparently.
Then precal & physics next year -- oh my !
Idk what else to say. Cranberry juice is amazing thoughh !
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[12-26-07 at 11pm] |
dear everyone,
happhappyhappyhappy =]
boy.
happyhappyhappyhappy.=]
love, lindsey
[who is happyhappyhappyhappy.=)]
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[12-7-07 at 4pm] |
LONGEST GIRL SURVEY EVER
-Don't be shy, Fill it all out-
1. Do you sleep in your bra?
Actually yes.
2. Have you kissed any one on your top list?
what is my top list?
3. Are you happy with your looks?
not in the least but i dont wanna sound emo.
4. Do you enjoy drama?
no.
5. Are you a girly girl?
in some respects, that being that i cant ever get the
opposite gender out of my mind.
6. Who was the last person you hugged?
taylor?
7. Small or large purses?
i hate purses tbh.
8. Are you short?
yeah basically.
9. Do you like someone?
i'm trying not to.
10. What would you do if someone smacked your butt?
it depends who it is. if it was a teacher i might carry out a lawsuit.
11. Do you care if your socks are dirty?
dirty as in, drenched in dirt? yes. dirty as in, not washed? no.
12. Do you think you’re conceited?
i certainly hope not.
13. Are you a bitch?
to some people.
14. Are you double jointed?
hahaha no.
15. Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
i actually havent slept anywhere weird, cause i cant sleep
anywhere but a bed.
16. Has anyone touched/smacked your butt in the past 24 hours?
no i don't think so.
17. Is there any type of rumor going around about you?
Most likely, thanks to ex-boy's popularity.
18. Do you call anybody by their last name?
yeahhhh.
20. How many guys will read this just because it says- Girl Confessions?
i dont have guy lj friends ;_________;
[ x ] I do wear make up
[ x ] I have cried at a movie theater.[ harry potter, bitches ! ]
[ ] I can put mascara on without opening my mouth.
[ x ] I get jealous
[ x ] I think Johnny Depp is sexy.
[ x ] I love to laugh
[ x ] I like rap [when i'm pissed off ]
[ x ] i like techno
[ x ] I like country. [carrie underwood cause i'm a conformist ]
[ ] I carry a purse.
[ x ] I owned a Spice Girls CD. [still do xD ]
[ x ] I owned a Britney Spears CD.
[ ] I get bored watching football
[ x ] I’ve never been called a spoiled brat [ only by mommy dearest ]
[ x ] Guys are confusing
[ x ] I’ve been called a bad influence.
[ x ] My friends/family are the best.
[ x ] I have/had piercings.
Come on ladies, be truthful!
1. What color is your bra?
bright pink
2. Do you prefer light or dark haired guys?
brownish
3. Are you currently frustrated with a boy?
Unforunately
5. Do you have a best friend?
I have 3.
6. Have you ever had your heart broken?
More times than not.
7. Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?
All the time tbh.
8. Do you like your life?
Most of the time, until recently.
9. Do you shop at hollister?
I'm not even gonna lie I probably would if I could afford it.
10. Has one of your friends ever stolen a boyfriend from you?
I don't think so.
11. Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?
no
12. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?
Boys.
13. How long have you had myspace?
I don't anymore.
14. Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?
Definitely.
15. What are your biggest fears?
Ghosts & Snakes. & dying alone.
16. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
Many a time. Because I only cry when I'm alone, & that's about
the only time I'm alone.
17. Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?
Currently.
18. Do you believe in the saying “once a cheater, always a cheater”?
I don't know it honestly depends on the person, but if a dude cheated on me,
I wouldn't take any shit.
19. Have you ever had a good feeling about something?
...no my entire life has been a black abyss. WTF OF COURSE.
20. Do you ever wish you were famous?
Yeah but only cause if I were famous I could afford a personal trainer.
21. Are you currently missing someone?
Yeah and he doesn't even care at alllllllllllll.
57 Girl Confessions
THIS GUY OR THAT GUY?
Preppy or Punk/Goth?
Prep tbh
Taller or Shorter?
Taller...not difficult to achieve
Face or Body?
It depends
Sweet or Sexy?
Sweet
Well-educated or Dropout?
well-educated
Armani or Abercrombie?
ambercrombie
City-slicker or Rural?
Rural
Contacts or Glasses?
glasses
Funny or Serious?
funny
Romantic or Daredevil?
romantic
Cute or Hot?
cute
Dark Eyes or Light Eyes?
Light
Long Hair or Short Hair?
Medium
Curly Hair or Straight Hair?
straight
Clean-cut or Rough?
Clean-cut
Good Dancer or Good Singer?
singer
Basketball Player or Football Player?
Basketball player =]
Jock or Rebel?
rebel
Smoker or Non-smoker?
definitely non
Drunk or Sober?
Sober of course
Druggie or Clean?
clean
college or no college?
college
Has a Motorcycle or Has a Sports Car?
Sports car I guess
Beard/Mustache or Clean-shaven?
Clean shaven definitely
Younger or Older?
older
Player or Loyal?
.........obviously loyal wtf.
Bad or Nice?
nice
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[11-26-07 at 5pm] |
hey hey hey
its my birthdayyyy !
& andrew simz married me on facebook =] !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
that is all.
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[11-23-07 at 6pm] |
i guess its something about boys named ben.
they make me fall hard for nothing.
i am an idiot.
i love my friends.
the end.
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[11-22-07 at 10pm] |
wow its been a while.
today's turkey day !
haha.
lets see. not much has changed.
school has been monotonous.
it drags and it drags and it kills me.
buttttt i have several close friends
& they get me through it.
theres a new boy. hes actually
in my grade and at my school this time !
he's kindaaaaaa out of my league.
but hes reallyyyy reallyyyyyy cute, &
he's not a dumbass, and he's not a
genius, he's normal, which is perfect.
he's funny too. k ill stop gushing.
today was turkey bowl. i went with mads
& gayle. we got murdered by shawnee.
haha oopsies. it was mad hot though.
i saw lambo & met his girlfriend hahaha.
i also saw wifey ! me mads and gayle
just walked around and got harassed
by the shawnee boys + lauren who we
love. eventually we harassed fran & boy,
and i started talking incoherently out of
nervousness.
after the game i came home & then went
to my aunts house, with the whole fam.
i ate so much but it was a lot of fun.
Christian & Ryan played one acoustic,
one electric guitar to beatles songs while i
sang, in the living room, it was chill and perfect.
then we came home and i went on a run.
now im bored.
wow my life is sad and boring.
tomorrow im going out con mi familia, then
at night im going to erin's with meri for a fiesta.
saturday is my birthday "fiesta" at mathis'
with the shawnee kids, and sunday is my birthday
fiesta with the family. then monday i officially
turn 16 and take my permit testtttt !
SQUEEEEEE !
Okay i'm done.
ily all.
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[10-27-07 at 11am] |
It's so pretty today. Perfect fall day. Saturday, raining, gray skies,
yellow-red leaves. Gorgeous.
Anyway. Last night was Shawnee's homecoming. It was interesting.
I had previously wanted to go with Jones so I could go as a friend with
him, and dance with whoever the hell i damn well pleased. Instead,
Gayle started dating Jones, and I was unwillingly pushed into being
Mathis' date. Mathis is a great kid, but he really likes me and...I don't
really feel the same way at all. So we get there, and it's so unbelievably
awkward. Like, insanely. Then Adam shows up. For the record,
Adam = insanely hot hot hot hot HOT boy. Also a druggie and the biggest
manwhore to ever walk the universe. He started flirting with me though,
and I started flirting back, and it was like that the whole night I guess,
and Mathis started getting sad and mad so I tried to go back to him.
But like, h aogiheoghw. It was so confusing. I wanted to go to have a
good time, and Mathis knows we're just friends, but it's all quite
annoyingly dramatic and confusing.
Also, I feel like a cow. I need to start eating better. Cause right now...
I don't. at all.
But it's a beautiful day. So I'll enjoy it.
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[10-19-07 at 4pm] |
Life would be so much better if I could forget about you.
He won't get out of my mind. He's making me uninterested
in good, wholesome, sweet guys who would make me happy.
Why is it I go for the ones who hate me? Why can I be happy
with no one other than him?
Why do I keep getting blinding migraines again?
Why have I stopped exercising and doing my body good?
Why are my grades slipping so badly this year?
Why am I losing so many of my friends?
Why don't you care anymore?
& nothing really matters when you're gone.
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[9-30-07 at 1pm] |
hello my lovelie livejournal-ers.
i would just like to say one thing:
across the universe is the best movie
that has ever been made in the history
of mankind, and every last one of you
must go and see it.
the end.
<3
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[9-23-07 at 10am] |
Weeeeeee hey there eljay. How you doing?
I havent updated in a while. Sorry.
Let's see. School's begun. It's been so freaking
hard I can't even deal. I'm drowning in all my classes,
getting D's on everything even though I'll study all
night.
It's fantastic, really.
Ive made a few friends over at Shawnee, which is good,
cause theyre hilarious.
& i've got myself into a bit of drama which is always great.
3 boys are throwing me through a loop.
Boy 1 - A year older; Goes to shawnee;
LDTV hotshot; big dork; adorable; asked me
outtttt last night
Boy 2 - My age; webmaster at shawnee; hilarious; looks like
nathan paul; adorable; told me that he really likes me
Boy 3 - Perv; 2 years older than me; goes to Lenape; used to talk
to him all the time over the summer; forgot about him until recently;
had a dream about him last night; cant stop thinking about him.
So obviously I'm an idiot. There's 2 great dudes who actually want
to date me, and all i can think about is the one who doesn't. I'm really
about to punch myself in the face.
Whatevs. Anyway. Did I tell you the Shawnee boys entered Andrew Simz's
number into my phone the other day, and called him from it?
yeah that was embarrassing. I almost died of humiliation.
Alright. Off to write essays for Lange, and try to study for Frisch.
Much love !
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[8-22-07 at 7pm] |
Sooooo what's been going on in the life of Lindsey?
Hmmm not much. Last week I went to LDTV Camp lmao.
I met a boyyyy haha.
Everyone there was so nice...& oddly enough most
of the people I hung out with were from Shawnee...oops !
Andrew showed up on Day 2, & he came as a result of
Alex [one of his friends, and one of mine] calling him secretly.
They all had a good laugh as I fangirled my way into oblivion.
It's weird to be around them when they're around Andrew,
'cause he's just Sims to them. Weeeee I'll stop.
So I met a boy. He's cute. He's shy. Andrew is apparently
telling all of Shawnee's Morning Show Crew that me &
said boy are going out & so they're all friending me on facebook.
It's...interesting.
ANYWAY. Tuesday of this week I went & saw Grease on
Broadway with Gayle, Michael, & their Daddykins. It was so
much fun ! I love the Pitone family. And more importantly
I love Gayle. We've had some issues along the way but I
honestly feel like she's my closest friend. We just know
each other so well haha.
Grease was AMAZING !! It was with the cast from that reality
tv show "You're the one that I want" so that was cool. & Max
[who played Danny Zuko] was adorable. It was honestly
one of the best plays I've been to.
Gayle slept over that night, then in the morning we went to
Great Adventure with Madison, Ben, Steve, Kevin, & Madison's
sister. It was raining hXc all day, but we dealt with it. We
Front-Rowed Nitro twice, batman, and Medusa, and we went
on El Toro, Superman, & Scream Machine. We did the House
of Houdini randomly, too. It was a good time had by all.
Kingda Ka was closed though =[
Anyway, I love my friends. We had such a great time I enjoyed
it immensely. Today I went to Gayle's and we watched
High School Musical 2...yay !! Tomorrow we're seeing Hairspray.
That should be fun.
Okay, off to watch movies.
<33
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